I am definitely blown away by anything having an investment of a million words or more... that kind of effort and output would be next to impossible for me to discard or abandon, I think. (Even with all the crap that happened for you.)

I'm glad you don't regret continuing it, even though it sounds like beyond a lot, though I also understand that feeling of still not being sure you would have made that same choice. And I also get you on the Covid doing a number on your brain thing. I'm still trying to suss out if I've actually got some lingering Covid-related brainfog or if I'm just like this, but it SEEMS to be worse since I got it, despite it having been a relatively mild case.

The daily tracking of NaNo (in a way that feels more official than anything I can do on my own) tends to help me be productive with writing... though it also usually burns me out, yet I commit year after year.
Thank you - I'll figure out something to try and work on, I'm sure!