Misc:

[mistressofmuses]

Ouch to watching money just sort of hemorrhaging itself away the instant I get paid... All needed stuff, but still. Tires for the truck, groceries, bills...

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Dreading tomorrow at work - first time closing a class with the new set of procedures in place, and I'm not sure how well it'll go. I do have help, which is good. Buuuut it'll probably still be an extremely long day.

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Gotta make it through two more days, then I can go hang out with my sibling! It's their birthday on Tuesday, and they took the week off. (I know they mostly are going to be playing BG3, but we're going to hang out at least for Monday and Tuesday, and maybe Sunday night. Have to figure out if we need to do anything on Monday, or if I am good to go spend the day there.)

I got books for them for their birthday... hopefully they'll be happy with them. Sleep No More by Seanan McGuire, Witch King by Martha Wells, and In the Lives of Puppets by TJ Klune. Appreciate my restraint, because I did not also buy myself copies of Witch King or In the Lives of Puppets despite wanting them, ha.

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I'm annoyed that my writing attempts for the month have basically completely derailed. The month is only half over, so it's probably not quite time to throw in the towel, but... I'm back to needing to write basically a fic a day to be done by the end of the month, which I know isn't happening.

I speculated in a comment earlier, but I think it is likely my stress from work that's causing at least some of the problems. I just have zero energy or brainpower left when I get home, and attempting to push through doesn't yield anything usable. I don't *mind* pushing through when it at least works. Instead I keep winding up with just... utter word salad, or at best just some really lousy sentences that aren't even close to what I want.

With Taylor's birthday, that's at least two, maybe three days that I definitely won't be working on writing, and I'm trying to weigh the appeal of "just take a break until then" or "do as much as I can before then."

I might go with the break, and see if a few pressure-free days unlocks some of the stuff I'm struggling with. Plus maybe I can get some reading in!

Comments

[umadoshi]

I do have help, which is good. Buuuut it'll probably still be an extremely long day.

I hope it goes as well as possible!

I think it is likely my stress from work that's causing at least some of the problems.

It wouldn't be at all surprising. :( So frustrating!

[mistressofmuses]

*scream* It would have been far, far worse if it hadn't been for the help I had, but it should have gone more smoothly than it did.

[olivermoss]

If they are playing BG3 make sure that they are at least making story choices that entertain you!

Breaks can help a lot. If you go with that, I hope it's a good one. Not to be all 'you need to refill your well' but... until someone makes a better metaphor... :)

[mistressofmuses]

While I'm over, we'll probably pivot to Final Fantasy XIV. That's what we started a new game of last time I was around, because prior to BG3 that was Taylor's big obsession and so they want me to see it and get to all the big plot things they love.
I've little doubt that BG3 will EVENTUALLY be on our list to go through together, but considering the length, it probably won't be for a long while, ha.

I mean, if there was a better metaphor I'd use it, but "refill the well" really does describe it pretty well. I feel like I just had a long "refill" period, but if I need another, I need another.

[spikedluv]

I hope today goes smoothly at work. *fingers crossed*

I hate when the world conspires to make it impossible to write. Good luck.

[mistressofmuses]

*screams into a pillow*

Thank you. I definitely feel conspired against. I just keep hoping things get better. (Or at least reach an acceptable plateau of suck!)

[vriddy]

I just have zero energy or brainpower left when I get home, and attempting to push through doesn't yield anything usable.

This is too real :( If work is frustrating, I can sometimes channel all the suck into writing, but when it's too much and leaves me drained and exhausted at the end of the day, I know there's also no point for me in pushing words out. Wishing you well, and good luck!

[mistressofmuses]

Right? Sometimes writing is a nice escape or break from other things sucking. It's one of those things I *can* control (at least to a point) and creating things feels nice! I like when it's an outlet for other frustrations. But yeah, regrettably right now it's the "too drained for anything else" kind.

Thank you! I'm hoping that things lighten up at some point.