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mistressofmuses) wrote2026-04-20 07:20 pm
Habit Tracking: Week 16 (April 12 - April 18)
Silver and blue moth.
This was a pretty successful week in terms of what I got done, but I didn't ever really feel very good about it. I did my medical appointment, but it just left me in dread of all the stuff I have left to do. I did some cleaning and errands and things, which was good. I did okay on reading. I decided to pretty much take a break entirely from writing, because it's just become an exercise in increasing misery that I dread attempting, so I feel relieved not to be trying to do it, but also guilty for not doing it. Work was fine. I got my pin boards mostly put together, which is nice - I've been trying to get that done for months. Mostly... I wish I felt better about the week.
Goals for the week:
- I did go to my doctor appointment
- Alex made Bella's vet appointment... which then got cancelled due to construction issues
- I did finish reading The Two Towers
- I started reading Be the Sea
- I worked on my reviews
- I did not work on the WIP outline, and indeed decided to just stop trying at this point
- I did work on my reading page
- I went to my work meeting on Saturday
- I got crickets
- I watered my plants
- I cleaned the window blinds
- I cleaned the window sill
- I finished paying my hospital bill
- I worked on putting my pin boards together
Habit tracking:
- Work - 5/7
- Household Maintenance - 2/7
- Physical Activity - 5/7, plus one day where I tried to do an indoor walk because it was snowing
- Wrote 500/1000+ Words - 0/7
- Non-fiction Writing - 2/7, both over 500 words, but with three additional days of under 500 words
- Meta Work - 2/7
- Personal Writing - 3/7
- Other Creative Things - 2/7
- Reading - 7/7 - I finished reading The Two Towers, started Be the Sea, read a little bit of Game Changer, and a short story. Alex and I read some of The Luminous Dead.
- Attention to Media - 7/7 - Sunday watched some game videos; Monday had some storm chasing in the background; Tuesday had storm chase and later game videos; Wednesday through Friday had game videos in the background; Saturday watched a paranormal video, some explore videos, then game videos.
- Video Games - 1/7
- Social Interaction - 6/7 - I accidentally filled in a box that I shouldn't have
Total words written: 2322 on reviews
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I feel this in my whole soul. It's kind of where I'm at right now in a lot of ways. Real Writing is just not happening right now, and trying to stresses me out and makes me sad. Maybe it's something about the season.
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I hope it does for you too! I have no idea if it's a seasonal thing or what. I know for me it might be a medication issue, and I'm working on sorting that out.
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Congratulations on clearing your hospital bill! That's a major achievement. And I think it's perfectly reasonable to give writing a rest until the desire to do it comes back. It does come back, but only if you don't strain it by pushing it too hard. You deserve a time of not pushing yourself so hard, and it sounds like you achieved a lot.
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And thank you. Sometimes pushing through on the writing seems to be the right call, but for the last six months or a year or so it really hasn't seemed to be a good idea. The more I push, the more it seems to suck, haha. I'm hoping that a break from it will help it come back, and help it feel enjoyable to do again.
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I do think you can strain your writing muscles by pushing through for too long. You have to give it time to recover, and just concentrate on accumulating new facts and experiences that may one day spill over into the wish to write again. We're like fields - we need to lie fallow every so often.