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[mistressofmuses]

It is going to take at least one more day for me to get caught up on all my shit.

My headache is (mostly) gone, or at least faded to a dull annoyance, but I am Tired As Hell. I'm super behind on anything DW related, but hopefully have nothing else I've got to do for tomorrow after work.

I feel cripplingly old and uncool being ready to go to sleep at 9:00, but here we are...

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[olivermoss]

Ugh, that sucks. I hope you are feeling better soon

[mistressofmuses]

Thank you! I did feel better today, and fingers crossed it stays that way!

[galadhir]

It sounds like it might have been a migraine after all. Those things suck the energy out of you even when they stop being unbearably painful.

It's funny when you get to that stage of feeling old and uncool, isn't it? It's like 'where do I go from here? If nothing is cool, where do I find enjoyment and purpose?' And so far all I can say is that nature remains beautiful and exercise still provides endorphins. But as for the rest of it, I'm still not sure.

[mistressofmuses]

I think you're right. It didn't come with as much photosensitivity as I'm used to with migraines, but everything else was there. I couldn't get OTC painkillers to even touch it, and the only thing that ultimately seemed to chase it off was sleep.

It is, haha. I still love nature, I still love and find enjoyment in stories (other peoples' and my own, in book, fic, game, etc. forms), and my dog is the best. But other than that, I guess I'm just going to be old and uncool and sleep when I'm tired, hahaha

[galadhir]

I still love stories too, and I'm holding out hope that I might be able to hyperfixate again when the right one comes along. I don't really recognize myself when all I've got is reality. But otoh, learning to appreciate reality isn't necessarily a bad thing either :)

[mistressofmuses]

I'm with you on wanting to find the right story to hyperfixate on, hopefully to the extent that it inspires fic ideas! I can find things I enjoy, but not that I then also want to write my own stories about.

There are certainly things about reality it's good to appreciate, and I know there are times where I lived in fantasyland to an excessive degree... but that doesn't mean I don't miss it when I don't have it.