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What a BULLSHIT day
Mar. 2nd, 2021 09:24 pmJust work bullshit, but the bullshittiest.
Lots of rescheduling. A driver at the center with a chronically inept manager needed some days off that she never did anything about, and now that she's out for a week (due to horrible things that I am genuinely so sorry for her about), they became my manager's problem, which means they became mine. It wound up being low-effort to solve, because one of our center's drivers is great and able to cover. But still.
The higher-effort one was my manager's issue, where one of the drivers at the OTHER center she manages had put in a PTO request, and no one realized that her time had been scheduled anyway. That one was more difficult, but I did hear back and get 7 of the 8 people rescheduled. #8 has a voicemail and an email out, so hopefully they get back to me about it.
Plus a fairly constant stream of other stupid little one-off issues.
Plus I was just so tired today that I could have faceplanted on my desk and taken a nap. I got up probably 8 or 9 times overnight due to the whole blood-gushing thing, and then also dreamed about work, which is just insult on top of injury.
I actually was told my sales goal for the month, which is a nice change from the last five months where they haven't told me. But it's $8000 for the primary business and $3000 for the secondary business, and that just isn't fucking going to happen. I'll try harder, I guess.
Days like this make it really hard to want to do anything once I'm home, and yet I also hate the cycle of work-nothing else-work again, so... bleh.
The habit tracking has largely been a positive thing, but I'm wondering if I should adjust it in some way... I'm starting to feel low-key guilty when I don't get "enough" done. It's actually the additional goals that cause the most difficulty, but some of those are things I don't feel I can give up on (like editing my friend's book, or cleaning the apartment because I don't want Alex to be responsible for it alone). But then if I do those and nothing else, it still feels like all my time is going to helping other people, and none of the things I want for myself.
Not sure what to do. I think it's a general feeling of burnout. Maybe I should try to take some time off for a long weekend, but usually I hoard my PTO like a dragon so that we can go on a small trip over the summer. I'll keep thinking about it.
Lots of rescheduling. A driver at the center with a chronically inept manager needed some days off that she never did anything about, and now that she's out for a week (due to horrible things that I am genuinely so sorry for her about), they became my manager's problem, which means they became mine. It wound up being low-effort to solve, because one of our center's drivers is great and able to cover. But still.
The higher-effort one was my manager's issue, where one of the drivers at the OTHER center she manages had put in a PTO request, and no one realized that her time had been scheduled anyway. That one was more difficult, but I did hear back and get 7 of the 8 people rescheduled. #8 has a voicemail and an email out, so hopefully they get back to me about it.
Plus a fairly constant stream of other stupid little one-off issues.
Plus I was just so tired today that I could have faceplanted on my desk and taken a nap. I got up probably 8 or 9 times overnight due to the whole blood-gushing thing, and then also dreamed about work, which is just insult on top of injury.
I actually was told my sales goal for the month, which is a nice change from the last five months where they haven't told me. But it's $8000 for the primary business and $3000 for the secondary business, and that just isn't fucking going to happen. I'll try harder, I guess.
Days like this make it really hard to want to do anything once I'm home, and yet I also hate the cycle of work-nothing else-work again, so... bleh.
The habit tracking has largely been a positive thing, but I'm wondering if I should adjust it in some way... I'm starting to feel low-key guilty when I don't get "enough" done. It's actually the additional goals that cause the most difficulty, but some of those are things I don't feel I can give up on (like editing my friend's book, or cleaning the apartment because I don't want Alex to be responsible for it alone). But then if I do those and nothing else, it still feels like all my time is going to helping other people, and none of the things I want for myself.
Not sure what to do. I think it's a general feeling of burnout. Maybe I should try to take some time off for a long weekend, but usually I hoard my PTO like a dragon so that we can go on a small trip over the summer. I'll keep thinking about it.
