Misc.

Nothing quite like a near-11 hour day at work. (Staff meeting after regular shift, it's fine.)

But I am just... cripplingly exhausted tonight. I genuinely felt like I could have fallen asleep in the aforementioned staff meeting. Coming home I felt too tired to change out of my work clothes. I am just... dead on my feet.

So far this month, I've managed to keep up on NaNoWriMo... though admittedly and deliberately cheating, as I'd already decided. But I have at least made a non-zero amount of progress toward getting caught up on the things I was behind on. I've gotten above the required wordcount every day so far... But I have a feeling that today will be the day I don't. I don't think I have 1667 words in me right now, even cheating heavily.

As is often the case, I'm worried that giving myself permission to slack on one day will lead to me just... kinda quitting, because that's often the way it works for me. (The "ah, the guy enforcing these rules [me] is such a pushover" effect.) But I'll try to get as many words as I can today, and hope that keeps me from feeling like I can just give it up.

I have met with some success on getting things caught up - I've got tracking finished up through the beginning of this month, and backlogged DW posts done up to the last couple days of last month - and I'm pretty close to getting the rest of it caught up. Unfortunately, I have not caught up at all on any fiction writing, fan- or original. I haven't touched the AUgust fics, which were really my main writing goal for the month. I also haven't touched my sort-of-declared NaNo project, though I'm okay with that... turns out it was very much not ready to even attempt to work with. I might still go back to some idea like it at some point, but it's definitely not happening any time soon.

It's been a bit vindicating to realize how much I really do write in an average day... it's just not on the fiction stuff that I'm ostensibly supposed to be focusing on, ha. Maybe once I'm actually caught up on the other stuff I can look at figuring out how to balance my time a bit better. It makes more sense how I wind up feeling like I run out of time every night at least.