Further Tentative Writing Goals/Calendar:

So, last month I set myself a tentative writing plan, trying to get the last of my lingering AUgust fics done, and trying to figure out what I was going to do beyond that.

And then, well, January happened. Allegedly. I wasn't terribly aware of most of it, lol.

I am *still* dealing with this round of bronchitis (Day 23 and counting!), but am at least back to... semi-normal. I'm still coughing pretty frequently, but at least the stuff being coughed up is mostly clear and no longer tastes like infection. Unfortunately the other most-lingering symptom is fatigue, and I've been falling asleep basically any time I have more than an hour or so to sit still.

So here is my deliberately ambitious plan for the rest of February:

- 2/10, finish "Reconnection"
- 2/12, a second draft of "Reconnection"
- 2/13, post "Reconnection
- 2/17, finish "Royalty"
- 2/19, a second draft of "Royalty"
- 2/20, post "Royalty"
- 2/24, write "Dark"
- 2/26, a second draft of "Dark"
- 2/27, post "Dark"

Expected complications to this ambitious plan:
- The lingering fatigue. This knocked me out far worse than I'd expected this weekend.
- How much other stuff I have to catch up on. I basically lost all of January, and I have a lot of stuff I've fallen behind on in other areas of life. In order to get caught up, I have to do a lot MORE than I generally would in a given week, just to keep from falling farther behind. Added to the fatigue, I'm having A Bad Time.
- NaMoPaiMo! I've barely started on that project, but if I'm going to do that, it's likely to take up quite a bit of my free time and creative energy. Do I hope I can do both? Yes! Do I think I *can* do both? Less sure. And because that's a hard external deadline, it will probably have to take priority.

So that's why that's the *ambitious* plan. I honestly don't think it's realistic, but I've also hit the point where I feel like I'm just... not doing anything. I'm torn between trying to be gentle and understanding with myself because I'm still sick and not at my best and all... and feeling like I've already wasted a lot of time, and need to get things fucking done! It's frustrating, and I'm struggling to find any sort of middle ground. "Just do what you can do, don't push yourself!" is leading to me doing nothing. Trying to push is *still* leading to nothing, because I hit a damn wall and can't push over it! But I'm trying.

For beyond February, the hope is:
- Write, rewrite, and post "Shipwreck"
- Write, rewrite, and post "Pick Two"
- Buy myself Scrivener (planned as a bday gift to myself in March!)
- Do an idea inventory for my fanfiction
- Do an idea inventory for my original fic

I've also got several chapters backlogged of my German acquaintance's book that she wants me to do a translation edit of, and I feel AWFUL how long I've had those chapters. I couldn't work on them over the holidays, and then January went to shit, and I know I have so much else to do in February just to get back to caught up... Then March is right back to being busy. I feel like I need to do a LOT of sorting-out in terms of what I work on when, and how to just force myself to allocate time to the projects and tasks that need completing. Granted, that was partially what this calendar was supposed to help with, and it's just not quite there, haha.