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Faint, muffled screaming...
Jul. 19th, 2021 12:49 pmI slept like garbage again last night. I really wish my sleep schedule could get it together for more than a few days at a time, ugh.
But me, suddenly wide awake at 2am, still thinking about getting the LotR extended edition trilogy, which is in-stock less than two miles away from me for $70. But then I remember that the Blu-Ray (the version available) had a widely-loathed blue-green tint over the whole thing. And then I remember that the 4k version also had a lot of issues (like a lot of mega-high-def stuff) with OVERsharpening things to the point that they lost a lot of the style that people remember from the movies originally. (To be fair, those are second-hand opinions based on comparative screenshots - I've only ever seen the movies in-theater or on DVD.) Other people seemed to love the 4k version, because the softer look that the films originally had didn't appeal to them. Fair enough, but I want the version I remember, lol.
And ugh, each of the extended edition DVD sets is like $60-70 new, and that I CAN'T justify. But oh look, the same seller has all three in used-but-very-good-condition for a bit over $15 each, and even have a non-generic description of them that makes it sound like these versions ARE in fact the ones they're selling. Cool. Won't be here until next week, but rad. Thanks internet shopping, being there for me at fuck-o'clock in the morning.
And then I watched another episode of OG Leverage.
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I spent the whole morning dragging because I was so tired, and now I'm in full too-much-also-not-enough-to-do mode. I've got some frustratingly directionless creative energy that I'd really like to direct toward something (at least my words for the day! please!), but just... can't... start...
I've got the "can't do that, because first I should put my laundry away. But really I should edit Steffi's book chapter. But that means getting my work laptop out, since I can't even load gmail on this one anymore. Also editing takes HOURS, because it's unpaid but I want to do a good job. So I don't know that I want to commit to spending hours on that right now, because I want to work on something of mine, and I'll be too tired to do that afterwards. But I can't start on my thing, because I know I SHOULD work on hers, so..."
This is one of those probable-ADHD things that I HATE, because it seems like it should be a non-issue, and even seeing that it SHOULD be easy for me to just... do my thing if that's what I want to do, or just work on her thing for half an hour at a time, or whatever, I can't make myself do it!
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I could also fall asleep and take a nap, but I have a feeling it's an escape-nap and not a tired-nap, and those are never satisfying.
But me, suddenly wide awake at 2am, still thinking about getting the LotR extended edition trilogy, which is in-stock less than two miles away from me for $70. But then I remember that the Blu-Ray (the version available) had a widely-loathed blue-green tint over the whole thing. And then I remember that the 4k version also had a lot of issues (like a lot of mega-high-def stuff) with OVERsharpening things to the point that they lost a lot of the style that people remember from the movies originally. (To be fair, those are second-hand opinions based on comparative screenshots - I've only ever seen the movies in-theater or on DVD.) Other people seemed to love the 4k version, because the softer look that the films originally had didn't appeal to them. Fair enough, but I want the version I remember, lol.
And ugh, each of the extended edition DVD sets is like $60-70 new, and that I CAN'T justify. But oh look, the same seller has all three in used-but-very-good-condition for a bit over $15 each, and even have a non-generic description of them that makes it sound like these versions ARE in fact the ones they're selling. Cool. Won't be here until next week, but rad. Thanks internet shopping, being there for me at fuck-o'clock in the morning.
And then I watched another episode of OG Leverage.
-
I spent the whole morning dragging because I was so tired, and now I'm in full too-much-also-not-enough-to-do mode. I've got some frustratingly directionless creative energy that I'd really like to direct toward something (at least my words for the day! please!), but just... can't... start...
I've got the "can't do that, because first I should put my laundry away. But really I should edit Steffi's book chapter. But that means getting my work laptop out, since I can't even load gmail on this one anymore. Also editing takes HOURS, because it's unpaid but I want to do a good job. So I don't know that I want to commit to spending hours on that right now, because I want to work on something of mine, and I'll be too tired to do that afterwards. But I can't start on my thing, because I know I SHOULD work on hers, so..."
This is one of those probable-ADHD things that I HATE, because it seems like it should be a non-issue, and even seeing that it SHOULD be easy for me to just... do my thing if that's what I want to do, or just work on her thing for half an hour at a time, or whatever, I can't make myself do it!
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I could also fall asleep and take a nap, but I have a feeling it's an escape-nap and not a tired-nap, and those are never satisfying.
