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I am alive!

I just haven't felt like I have much to say.

Work hasn't left me in tears, but it is just a constant demoralizing drag. (I know, "so it's like... work?") Practicing just not giving a shit, which probably is really the best thing to do.

Writing still hasn't been happening. I just don't have any drive or interest in working on anything. It's frustrating, but I'm not making it past the "stare at the document and feel worse about it the longer I do that" stage. I do at least still get brief bouts of *wanting* to work on something, which is better than nothing! It just hasn't translated to being able to do anything about it.

I've let myself doomscroll a little more than I usually do, and I need to cut back on that again. I want to figure out bluesky as a site (as tumblr goes through another biannual "is this when the site finally dies?" round), and I also want to be at least somewhat informed about all the ways the US is deeply fucked... but in combination, it's not been great for mental health stuff. And then I feel bad that it makes me feel as shitty as it does, because I know so many people who are being impacted in vastly worse ways.

Is it the seemingly inescapable creep of fascism? Is it my job getting more and more demoralizing and frustrating? Is it the untreated depression? WHO KNOWS.
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So, the Tumblr CEO having a very public and extended meltdown at a trans woman sure is a thing. I know people were real mad about the site being silent about what seemed to be a pretty clear case of a user being targeted and then erroneously banned (for those not plugged into tumblr drama: a trans woman had her account deleted over alleged "adult content", but the post in question was a pair of completely SFW, fully clothed selfies. Since there was nothing even close to rule-violating in the images, it was suspected the post had been targeted by TERFs or other transphobes reporting it. That was tumblr's initial excuse, that it had probably been an algorithmic error due to a wave of reports, and so the human moderators would have to take a look... then they didn't do anything about it and she remained banned.)

... but bro, this was NOT the way to break the silence. Fucking yikes. (Going from "but think about how sad it makes me when people are mad about bad decisions, because we're not transphobes, we have trans friends and employees" to "after months of frustration, the user makes an hyperbolic silly 'fuck you, hope you die' comment that you're suddenly interested in contacting the FBI over as a credible threat of violence even though many, many users [ESPECIALLY trans users!] have reported much more serious and genuine threats and harassment and are met with crickets" to "DMing users who have expressed support for the user in question to argue" to "FUCKING STALKING THE USER TO HARASS HER ON OTHER PLATFORMS WHERE YOU SHARE ALL OF HER OTHER USERNAMES?" jesus.)

[Plus now there are credible rumors from staff that there is an unspecified deal being discussed about partnering with Midjourney, which is making a lot of artists go "ah fuck no."]

So. While THE DEATH OF TUMBLR is a bianual tradition at this point, there ARE a lot of people who are either definitely bailing or considering bailing from the platform because... well. The CEO is making his thin skin into everyone else's problem like a value-brand Elon Musk, particularly as he continues to harass this woman. (And maybe it would be kind of ha ha funny to watch him lose his shit if he weren't targeting and attacking a specific person.) A lot of the people who ARE bailing from tumblr are the weirdo queers that I'm on the platform to see posts from, so.

Taylor is considering bouncing to somewhere else, because hey, Site Actively Unsafe To Trans People. They're I guess considering trying out cohost, which I have zero experience with. It was one that SEEMED initially promising when various platforms were vying for Twitter refugees, and then I remember there being some pretty serious TOS issues that were pointed out here. I don't know if those issues were addressed. It seemed to sort of fade away, but it sounds like the place I'm seeing mentioned the most when it comes to people looking to leave tumblr (or to have a backup.)

As is always the issue when platforms crash and burn (or whimper and limp into oblivion), it feels like the biggest hurdle to finding somewhere new is the critical mass. (/mass of the people one wants to stay in contact with.) People talk about longing for the days of LJ, but refuse to come to DW. Tumblr was my other social media of choice because it is where the highest number of people I knew on LJ were going when LJ collapsed. I ultimately came to really enjoy tumblr as its own thing, even if it didn't ever feel like LJ did.

Bluesky seems to have a fairly good cross-section of the types of creatives (authors, artists, etc.) that I *wanted* to use Twitter to follow, and I'm glad it gave me somewhere else to go for that... but I haven't been using it enough to really feel comfortable with it, and it doesn't seem to be something that would fill the tumblr niche for me. 

The critical mass stuff now as far as social media goes seems to be to instagram, tiktok, and discord, and while I lurk in a couple discord servers, I just don't LIKE any of the above.

So... Cohost? Anyone have an account there that I could follow, if I do end up trying it out? If it's where Taylor goes, I'll probably at least try to give it a go.
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...now that it's no longer invite-only. (Though I know a couple people had offered me invite codes!)

I'm mistressofmuses there, too. I think I have to give up on my desire to switch online handles: it's just not happening for me, haha.

I definitely feel like I don't know how to really use it yet, so right now it's very much a 1:1 twitter experience, lol. I followed a handful of authors and such that I like, much as I did with twitter, and... now am not sure what to do with it.

I know a few people here had mentioned their own accounts, but I of course have forgotten usernames and such. Please let me know, and I'll follow you there!

Any suggestions on other accounts you follow and enjoy? I have very little idea of anyone who jumped to there, so any big-name artists/authors/etc. that you like, any smaller creators you enjoy, etc.
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I'm grateful that they posted a reminder about the posting page and the inbox... I'm much happier getting a chance to choose to use it and learn it rather than suddenly having it be my only choice!

This may also be my chance to finally learn to use markdown, which I know is simpler in a lot of ways than html (simpler to read, when making a long entry or formatting writing, as opposed to the mess of html tags.) It'd be easier for me to read my own posts as I write (or fix) them, but I've just been so loath to figure out the basics, heh.


Playing around with the new post creator feels vaguely appropriate, I guess, because today is Big Feels About The Internet Day.

I told [personal profile] olivermoss earlier, but... I miss the good internet. (Yeah, yeah, nothing was ever all good, all the time, but still.)

It got long, what a shock! )


In other news, my manager has been sick all week. She'd completely lost her voice yesterday, and today it was only slightly better, but she was coughing quite a lot. (It was also her birthday! Fun!) But she hasn't wanted to stay home, so she's been in the office all week. And today my throat has started to feel a little scratchy and hot, and now a bit swollen... Fuck.

I can't even really say she got me sick, since yesterday was the first day I was around her, and that'd be a sonic-fast infection-to-symptom timespan. It's more likely that we both caught it sometime last week or I got it over the weekend. We've had drivers out sick, we've had sick students, etc. Tis the season.

But uuuuugh.

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The whole twitter implosion thing definitely has me in that... "feeling some kind of way" way.
Mainly I think it's bringing up memories of the the exodus from LJ, which was a slow, miserable thing as opposed to the comparative apocalypse of *gestures broadly at twitter* all that.

I don't like twitter, and I never really used it. I've had I think two accounts on there, one from college, one from about a year or two ago, both of which I created when it felt like I "should" have a twitter. I created the accounts, followed a bunch of creators I liked, and then... never used them again after that. (And I resent the emails I get about so-and-so tweeting something, because they're almost always "some conservative politician you hate and have never followed or interacted with tweeted..." and I do not want to have them in my inbox at all, thanks.)

I *have* unfortunately seen how horrifically toxic twitter can be as a space, how the deliberate short-form format absolutely destroys any chance for nuance, yet how vitriolic assholes pile on to literally anything for the sin of not encapsulating the totality of human experience in a single tweet. How anger and outrage (even manufactured) is the fastest way to get attention and clout. How it's become a requirement to be in the publishing industry, to the point that many pro authors have talked about how their twitter presence is mandated in their author contracts. (Even when they find no enjoyment in it, even when it's detrimental to their mental health.) That's like... a whole other pile of shit.

But I know that even though I haven't ever gotten much use or enjoyment out of twitter, there are a lot of people who HAVE. And for whom that IS their community. I know that large swaths of fandom were already there, and then more decamped to twitter when the porn ban happened on tumblr. I know that it's where a LOT of writers and artists, fan and pro, do their networking and share their work. I don't *get* why anyone would want to do that, because the way twitter works seems like it would be the worst for sharing works that you want anyone to actually have a chance to find for more than a day, but I don't have to get it!

Watching a community you're invested in and care about crumble sucks. So despite my schadenfreude at watching Muskrat fuck everything up with his enormous ego... I AM sorry to watch people struggle with the idea of losing touch with people they care about and communities they enjoy and want to remain a part of.

(While I think the world, particularly the sphere of social media, may be better without twitter, or with twitter having a reduction in the power it's had, it's still a bummer for the people impacted now.)

Me being nostalgic over LiveJournal, not so much about Twitter: )

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